storms

 
When you hear the word "storm" typically you'd think rain. Right? Because I would have. But in the last three months that word has created its own meaning in my life. It is a constant battle. An example of a storm in my life would be a fight with a loved one. I have had so many of them lately. A storm is something that isn't even comforting to me anymore. In the past when it would rain I would typically cuddle up with my blanket and watch a movie or nap. But now when it rains and storms all I feel like doing is crying. This blog isn't going to be like some where all I do is ramble about how my life sucks and so on. Because my life is going great. I'm headed back to school.. ect. But this storm isn't something that it used to be anymore it's something I don't want to hear, it's something I don't want to be around. There is so many songs that have to do with rain and storms but there is one particular one that really means something to me. Lately I have been in a constant battle with someone, a few nights ago I was on the edge of giving up and moving on. Which isn't me. I fight to the finish and hang on until the rope ends. It isn't fair that crap happens in life. But I have learned that life isn't fair. I believe that God has a plan for me. I really need Him to show me soon. I need to know why everything keeps happening. I have kept faith in Him and in ready for everything to fall into place.